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June 16th, 2009 (10:28 am)
distressed

current location: Singapore
current mood: distressed
current song: Rick Ross - Hustlin'


Last night I was informed that my grandmother is soon to pass. Another supreme effort from myself and my chain of command allowed for a plane ticket home today. Till then there will be not much sleep and a lot of worry.

I've already described how my grandfather on my father's side of the family was a hero to me. A real cowboy, sailor, husband, and father. I still hold myself to that standard and hope to achieve it.

My grandmother is someone who made due with what is available. The great depression permanently affected the way she handled things. Every time I visit and walk past the bottles, tied stacks of papers, bags of pop cans, and stacks of copper wire I'm reminded of this. She always was on the move, even after her second heart attack and surgery she tried to work as a sample person at the local stores giving out free toys and other things. It was only recently after a third surgery that she finally has started to slow down. She is now in the hospital and in a very weak condition. They are doing everything possible and we still have hope for her but reality means I am doing everything in my power to see her one last time before it is too late.

I called my mother last night to let her know I was doing everything possible to get back to the states. I was doing a good job of maintaining a calm demeanor until she started to cry. After I told her to let my grandmother know I was coming home I told my mother I loved her in time to get off the phone and start the paperwork to make what I just said a reality. Mid-way through the paper work I broke down myself, what little family I still have is starting to go away and it had a profound effect on me. Today I scoured the airlines for flights and lucked out; I will be leaving today and should be home in 28 hours. I know now that I've done everything possible to get home in time but the stress is still affecting me.

Comments

Posted by: Risu (skwerly)
Posted at: June 16th, 2009 06:53 pm (UTC)
hammy

*hug*

Posted by: teh_kei (teh_kei)
Posted at: June 17th, 2009 12:07 am (UTC)

*Double group hug*

Posted by: Sarge (sarge104)
Posted at: June 17th, 2009 01:46 am (UTC)

Thank you, sitting here on a ten hour layover in Narita, Tokyo...will have to see what the airport has to eat ;)

*Hugs back!*

Posted by: thelunarfox (thelunarfox)
Posted at: June 17th, 2009 05:52 pm (UTC)

*adds another hugs*

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